Weighing in this morning at 10 stone 6 lbs at just 5 foot 2 inches tall is probably not ideal. I haven’t weighed myself in ages, in denial again, but I knew I’d gained a little weight as I could feel it, so I thought it was about time to take my head out of the sand and face up to reality. I am determined not to dwell on it but to take it as my current starting point and move forwards, improving my fitness and health. There’s only so long I can pretend that eating 100g chocolate on a regular basis, plus cake sometimes as well, is Ok and isn’t going to impact on my health and weight (and skin!). That said, I am of the opinion that chocolate sometimes or cake sometimes is ok, and part of a healthy balanced diet, however the key here is sometimes, not in the quantities and frequencies that I am eating it.
I am committed therefore to re-balancing my life. Perhaps cutting down on TV time, making a bigger effort to regularly attend my activities and hobbies (I do enough exercise, when I make it to all my activities rather than deciding I’m too tired or feel too fat or am too stressed that day). Procrastinating a little less! Trying to make slightly more conscious food choices, and realising that, no, just because I don’t feel great today, it doesn’t mean that staying in all day or eating mindlessly is going to help in ANY way. Unless I am ill, then staying in is probably advisable. I want to be more proactive (I believe, that was in fact my new years resolution). So make that I WILL be more proactive.
I read an article recently about being single and it got me thinking. I am one of those people who spends most of their time single. Sometimes I think that yes, perhaps it would be nice to have a boyfriend, but to be honest, most of the time I am very much content as I am. I have great housemates, a good network of friends and lots of interests and hobbies. I like that my time is MY time and that I can spend it however I choose. I do not have to answer questions about where I’m going or who I’m spending time with. I am a rather restless soul and I do not like to feel tied down. I can take up a new hobby whenever I want, work any time of day or night, read with the light on till the early hours of the morning without anyone complaining, stay out late dancing, or go to bed early. I do not have to open up my heart when I don’t want to, or deal with issues and complications in a relationship. I am free to be me, as I want to be, when I want to be. I know some of my friends think I need a boyfriend, or try to think of people to set me up with but I am quite happy as I am. I like being single.